Whenever I Wander About the City

Whenever I wander about the city,i always meet some guys,wonderfully handsome,and extremely agreeable.So i just turn to the mirror,and wonder why is my portion distributed thuswise.
Yes,but well,its probably still fine.
Though my family is not that wealthy like i can afford to travel over the world in a boat;though i dont have a very well education,like speaking fine languages,and playing five musical instruments,together with doing sports and science well,thus entering Harvard or Cambridge,being fabulously versatile and accomplished;though i dont appear in a very gorgeous looking and great shape with a breathtaking beauty;though my health both physically and mentally is not that brand-new and fresh;though i have already spent my past ages like a waterfall without any consciousness and miracles inside;though there seems no quite plenty of promising prospects in store for my future era yet---In a word,though my life is not an aerial heaven nor a dreamy wonderland,i still feel it acceptable somehow.Yes,i was not born disabled,nor had i died in an plane accident so far,and there are more worse portions in the world.And as a normal person living in this earthly world,with my own happiness and sorrow,with the dreams and regrets,and in the flowing time river,i should consider all my illusions and desires in an appropriate and natural way.First,i dont need so many things actually,but then it should be advocated if we can change our life into a better position----I know this is not a simple plan or any theoretic ideas,it is just demanding---one should be very vast and talented so that he can not fall into those traps and burials through the liferoad. For instance,gay is a big trap in my opinion,one should not be confused and puzzled by these sexual issues.Besides,some guys tend to be nervous,some guys tend to be overcultural,while some guys tend to be too serious or risky.Every side has its advantage and disadvantage,as every shape of humanity has its brilliance and weakness,thus to achieve a pleasant life is more or less an occasional thing.

So practically to me,i demand endeavor and leisure in my recent liferoad.I should still work on my dreams and realities in the enduring time constantly,and i should also keep myself relaxed,healthy,and leisureful for the most part,and I should naturally try to accomplish something in this human society to at least earn many a capital,like a house on my own,sufficient money,security when i need,freedom when i wanna travel,ect,and also i should not lose the controll of my life relatively so that when i wanna recall my childhood,it wont be hard to find the moods,or when i wanna change a lifestyle,it wont be a luxury.

Once upon a time,i had a conversation with a childhood matey of mine.He said"I thought i could be a super powered man if i press upon my forhead and say some magical words"And i returned"Me too!I have made so many similar dreams,wherein i was such an uncommon wealth,other people in earth are insignificant".But when i grow up,this belief is torn into fragments in scorn,though i'm still the leading actor in my movie of life,i'm no longer centre of the world.So sometimes its quite ruthless,isnt it?Ages pass,and still life is pouring,and still scenery is sliding backwards.

And as pavarotti once said before his depart:"My cancer is the price of my lifelong happiness",there must be something to happen in the days of our life,so maybe,if we consider things properly,fear not the evil and poverty,we would live every day without any sorrow and bitterness indeed.And also,as my piano teacher said some years agone:"Only when your mind is mentally and physically done,your practical skills and technique abilities will finally and truly testify its comprehensive strenth and flexibility,otherwise the finger practice is a waste of time",life probably observes the same law.
Ah,Please!You can either choose to forget it,or to deserve it,when you have had a soft spot for something there.