Whenever I Wander About the City

Whenever I wander about the city,i always meet some guys,wonderfully handsome,and extremely agreeable.So i just turn to the mirror,and wonder why is my portion distributed thuswise.
Yes,but well,its probably still fine.
Though my family is not that wealthy like i can afford to travel over the world in a boat;though i dont have a very well education,like speaking fine languages,and playing five musical instruments,together with doing sports and science well,thus entering Harvard or Cambridge,being fabulously versatile and accomplished;though i dont appear in a very gorgeous looking and great shape with a breathtaking beauty;though my health both physically and mentally is not that brand-new and fresh;though i have already spent my past ages like a waterfall without any consciousness and miracles inside;though there seems no quite plenty of promising prospects in store for my future era yet---In a word,though my life is not an aerial heaven nor a dreamy wonderland,i still feel it acceptable somehow.Yes,i was not born disabled,nor had i died in an plane accident so far,and there are more worse portions in the world.And as a normal person living in this earthly world,with my own happiness and sorrow,with the dreams and regrets,and in the flowing time river,i should consider all my illusions and desires in an appropriate and natural way.First,i dont need so many things actually,but then it should be advocated if we can change our life into a better position----I know this is not a simple plan or any theoretic ideas,it is just demanding---one should be very vast and talented so that he can not fall into those traps and burials through the liferoad. For instance,gay is a big trap in my opinion,one should not be confused and puzzled by these sexual issues.Besides,some guys tend to be nervous,some guys tend to be overcultural,while some guys tend to be too serious or risky.Every side has its advantage and disadvantage,as every shape of humanity has its brilliance and weakness,thus to achieve a pleasant life is more or less an occasional thing.

So practically to me,i demand endeavor and leisure in my recent liferoad.I should still work on my dreams and realities in the enduring time constantly,and i should also keep myself relaxed,healthy,and leisureful for the most part,and I should naturally try to accomplish something in this human society to at least earn many a capital,like a house on my own,sufficient money,security when i need,freedom when i wanna travel,ect,and also i should not lose the controll of my life relatively so that when i wanna recall my childhood,it wont be hard to find the moods,or when i wanna change a lifestyle,it wont be a luxury.

Once upon a time,i had a conversation with a childhood matey of mine.He said"I thought i could be a super powered man if i press upon my forhead and say some magical words"And i returned"Me too!I have made so many similar dreams,wherein i was such an uncommon wealth,other people in earth are insignificant".But when i grow up,this belief is torn into fragments in scorn,though i'm still the leading actor in my movie of life,i'm no longer centre of the world.So sometimes its quite ruthless,isnt it?Ages pass,and still life is pouring,and still scenery is sliding backwards.

And as pavarotti once said before his depart:"My cancer is the price of my lifelong happiness",there must be something to happen in the days of our life,so maybe,if we consider things properly,fear not the evil and poverty,we would live every day without any sorrow and bitterness indeed.And also,as my piano teacher said some years agone:"Only when your mind is mentally and physically done,your practical skills and technique abilities will finally and truly testify its comprehensive strenth and flexibility,otherwise the finger practice is a waste of time",life probably observes the same law.
Ah,Please!You can either choose to forget it,or to deserve it,when you have had a soft spot for something there.

The Sveriges Riksbank Prize in Economic Sciences in Memory of Alfred Nobel 2008

The heading title is a bit special and long,so probably its an additional prize,especially considering that Nobel should not be familiar with economics very much at that age agone.
This year's award goes to Paul Krugman,from Princeton University Princeton, NJ, USA,born in 1953.He looks very young and vivid in the photo,with a newspaper in hand,and wears a subtle and lively smile.I bet he must live very commonly,like the drunk and rude shop owner in my next door,who seeks sensory stimulation constantly,since economists would care but money and wealth.
These kind of persons know exactly where the happiness of life "really" come from and what kind of things value the most in the world,which is merely capitalist and boisterous, therefore they are generally admirable for being perfectly secured.
I know nowadays there is a huge economic peril spreading over the world,especially the western market,henceforth economists would face a more exciting situation where they are indispensable.But i dont think economy is anything as important as worth setting up a nobel prize.Government and merchants should be responsible for the death of bubbles.Because it is they that establish such a system and circulation,and work it out like a mercy and grace over the ignorant civics.But the result is too obvious and abrupt,the economy divides people into the rich and the poor,and i cant see anything nice inside.I think there have not been a prole,if there had not been an economist.They should stop their foolish tricks right away,and make up for the status in quo.
The capital world is unfair of course,and so is its economy.When one friend said to me at a summer night of last year,"My pal,i think the world wont care for my self-esteem at all,just like the god wont care for the destiny of my being,now i'm in despair overall",i felt a deep distress for him.Yes,the world is at random set and scattered,but how can a society be that cruel again?
If an economist would concern the common people's life,then a pig could climb up a tall tree.And all they learn and preach,mostly pertains to nonsenses.Maybe its a prejudice,but i just cant feel nice upon them.
Anyway,the world never lack the sorrow and tragedy,albeit human seems to be promising and contrite all the time.My thoughts are gone now.I can only be vast when i abandon my side for something ineffable in my heart.Maybe i dont really mind the various artificial phenomena in the world,as long as they are not kissed or witnessed by god.

The Nobel Peace Prize 2008

Nobel Peace Prize probably is the most unregarded branch prize among chinese people.
And this year's laureate,Martti Ahtisaari,is an old man from Finland,born in 1937.
To be honest,i'm not very interested in him at all,maybe its because recent years such laureates of Nobel Peace Prize have given people a more disputed impression rather than honored idols like Martin Luther King,ect.
Anyway,this is still a most important prize in all verity to the ordinary world,because no one can deny that peace,belongs to the eternal theme of dream,which has been ever breeding in every heart of human society.
I love peace,and i need peace,thus,i seek peace and i make peace.
But my individual peace is little,when i have a mood of balance and beauty,vita and happiness,nature and culture,i cannot stop being peaceful in the moment.But the world's peace lies in more comprehensive and elusive mechanism,which is established upon human society and nature base.There is a gambling between tiny parts and the whole system.Everyone shares the same beautiful dream of peace,while they behave oppositely in the practical life.They forget their primary ideas in the big waves of social activities,and they consider it nothing much,like"peace wont be ruined if i just quarrel with my neighbour"or"I will delay the peace dream later,which doesnt result in anything serious,because i wont change the world"But what if everyone thinks the same?So,in the end,no one is doing good,all is driving beyond their wishes.
So,sometimes,perhaps,the phenomenon obeys a higher law,not any chances in human conduct but something destined to happen.
And at last,i am thinking of a question,what will a man think when he wanders in the seashore alone,litening the melodies of restless waves and peaceful wind,while the birds are singing over the blue summer sky,trees dancing upon the colourful sunshine?God blessing.....

Nobel Prize2008 in Literature

With the announcement of this year's literature prize,the sparkling name of laureate finally emerged from the predicted hottest nomination,that is:Jean-Marie Gustave Le Clézio,who is from france,boin in1940,and published various literature works during and through his travelling world-life.
And the honour word goes thuswise,perfectly touching:author of new departures, poetic adventure and sensual ecstasy, explorer of a humanity beyond and below the reigning civilization.
Apparently Gustave's works are very worthwhile reading,and i think i really demand more attention and a comprehensive bibliography upon the world literature,instead of being heedless and untrained for the most part,and now the first thing i wanna do is centainly reading the works of Gustave with a cup of coffee in a breezy morning or a remote afternoon,as to understand and catch up with the current literary penchant and fashion focus.I think i cant wait anyway!
Concerning the issue of literature,i think its undoutedly one of the best art form to record and represent accomplishments of human heart,both individually and collectively.Music is too subtle and brilliant,while painting is too weak and still,actually none of the others can replace the literature's function,as it is the most direct and popular member of arts.
And since I havent been talented and promising enough upon other art forms,i hope sometime when i have more leisure ,i could be able to write down some good works first.That must be memorable and cheerful,just like a fresh hiking or sailing with some old best friends.
Anyway,congratulations to you,my new passenger of heart,i will meet you somewhere,sometime,as if you are a speaker,and i am a listener,in that summer seashore of endless world.

Nobel Prize2008 in Chemistry

Three american scientist shared equally this year's chemistry prize,they are:
1.Osamu Shimomura(b1928),fromMarine Biological Laboratory (MBL)
Woods Hole, MA, USA
2.Martin Chalfie(b1947),fromColumbia University
New York, NY, USA
3.Roger Y. Tsien(b1952),fromUniversity of California
San Diego, CA, USA
for the discovery and development of the green fluorescent protein, GFP.
Anyway,there are a japanese and chinese american(feel so subtly emotional as a Chinese)
Chemistry,is a sheer material world,thus IMO,it should be one of the most truthful subjects,yes is yes,no is no,experiments and statistics dont lie,its very obvious and practical.There are few abstract consciousness,and mostly are firm and vivid ideas.So although its not as surreal and unlimitedly wild as physics,not as eternal and highly abstracted as maths,not as fun and animatedly interesting as biology,it still remains as one of the best approach to change and develop the age of the world.
Congratulations and salutations to you!

Nobel Prize 2008 in Physics

The prize finally goes to three yellow-racial men(same with mine).
First half belongs to Yoichiro Nambu(born in 1921),from Enrico Fermi Institute, University of Chicago Chicago, IL, USA,for the discovery of the mechanism of spontaneous broken symmetry in subatomic physics; and the second half is shared by Makoto Kobayashi(born in 1944),from High Energy Accelerator Research Organization (KEK) Tsukuba, Japan and Toshihide Maskawa(born in 1940),from Yukawa Institute for Theoretical Physics (YITP), Kyoto University
Kyoto, Japan,for the discovery of the origin of the broken symmetry which predicts the existence of at least three families of quarks in nature.

Well,Physics,especially modern physics has apparently been one of the most noticeable and promising subject of the human knowledge.Those who studies upon this subject must be admirable and respectable,because they push our age forward,and accelerate the speed of human evolution.Alas,it seems that i have established nothing,and i am so insufficient for my deram--well,if it still subsists in my life....

Anyway,congratulations to these japanese!

Nobel Prize 2008 in Medicine/Physiology

Today this year's Nobel Prize in Medicine/Physiology was announced to the world earlier time,

Harald zur Hausen(born in 1936)from German Cancer Research Centre Heidelberg,Germany,won the first half prize,for his discovery of human papilloma viruses causing cervical cancer,while the other half was shared by two french scientists:Françoise Barré-Sinoussi(born in 1947)from Regulation of Retroviral Infections Unit, Virology Department, Institut Pasteur Paris ,France,and Luc Montagnier(born in 1932) from World Foundation for AIDS Research and Prevention Paris ,France,for their discovery of human immunodeficiency virus'.

First of all,congratulations to them,such great minds and grand achievement!
But still my hesitation remains over classical western medicine.Is it really that reliable as we anticipate all the time?No one doubts the science and science-based western medicine in this world,and instead of the reigning divinity,science and reason seem to be the dominant belief in this modern age.But i still remember the past ages,like the golden ages and dark ages before,their voices and legacy,those dreams and fantasy,can we just stop for a moment,and look back,meditate on our tracks again?I can imagine someday when a 22th century person happend to read this diary,he must laugh out loud and make a naughty wish for me in the moment.
Anyway,the most concerned prize is always in literature,so lets expect which great writer(s) would be this year's laureate(s).

A Visit To CityMuseum

This sunday morning i somehow made a visit to our city museum.

Its pretty tacky there,free tickets,a few exhibition rooms as its embranchment,a considerable number of tourists,and the inside shop charged ridiculously high.

The first department i wandered in is the History Museum.From the first seigneur established his kingdom,within thousands of years evolvement in dynasties,along to today's modern age,it seems as if all is a vision of dream,or an illusion of a midsummer.
If these walls could talk,if the land beneath our feet could speak,there wouldnt be so many stories and figures abandoned for modern audience.Those black and white photos
fading light yellow and grey,still cannot console those plaintive souls roaming in the air.
Ages passed and will ever pass along,as if oceans all dried out,and stones all became stinged or eroded,and civilizations all prospered before ruined.
The land where my feet touches,where the dust of a misty mood ascends and spreads,where the crops produced,and where we build up our homeland and society,keeps still in silence for ages as if a symbol of sympathy,meditation,love or consolation.
Yes,nothing is immortal.While people are arguing about varied politics,about ambitions and competitions,about wealth and desires,while so many phenomena and fashions appears in sequence,while festivals and carnivals are put up,and everyone is filled inside the drama of providence,the land utters nothing,waits for time sliding quietly.But i know million years later,the land would pour his secret word to another universe.

The essays following the photos faithfully record the information of the history of my homeland.Because its isolated geographically to inland by mountains,while facing the oceans in the other side,people here acquired a mature skill of sailing and hunting,producting and trading.And the beautiful scenery made it a great inspiration for forming a rich culture,which includes something like literature,painting,calligraphy,handicraft,ancient drama,music,religion and science,ect.But noticeably its quite quiet in politics for a long period since the ancient transportation is undeveloped thus making the connection not so much.From this,i think i understand myself better,like the disadvantages from other people of alien cultures,and other features i always have to some extent,but wasnt aware of enough.



And the second museum i set foot in,was Nature Museum.And poor me,first time to know clearly that dinasours are the ancestors of birds nowadays.I think someday i must raise a bird.And of course,the museum indicated that the colourful world is being ruined and destroyed by our industry and the abuse of natural resource.To be honest,the modern age in my opinion,possesses a subtle prospect.It could be either towards a door where another space is introduced and spreaded,or towards a door where people get nuts and insane,and everything deserted or ruined in ashes.In ancient time and classical age,human is a sincere and naughty child to the nature,friendly or exactly impuissant,and ages past,human got more and more evil and wild,like a person addicted to sex or stimulation,they demand more and more indulgence of joy thus reflecting on more and more pains and harms.The world was set up random at first,and only human decided definitions and notions,and established rules and systems by his sense organs.It should be perfectly suitable because god makes people this way.But the people gradully felt unsatisfied,hence developing more and more addictions without restriction.
I consider it a destiny rather than a story.You know,some modern people even understood the world worse than the Epicurus who's almost 2200 years born earlier.This utterly proves that though human can realize something for a moment,but they cant change anything any more.
As Elton John sang in a lyric:this train dont stop there any more.Well,i say,The train i am inside,i actually dont know where its going on.
But usally in the end,i realize that these questions are boring.For instance,when you buy a box of chocolate home,would the chocolate know where hes going on?Anyway it must make no senses.

Afterwards,i felt a bit tired,so i cancelled visiting some other branches,like handicrafts,provisions,ect.On the way home,i found the sun blazing very gently,and the wind kissed my forhead and facecheek like a fresh verve of Debussy,let alone the wandering clouds,they are nearly a floating poem of affection.In a subtle feeling,i suddenly wanna sing the song"...we will never feel bad any more..."

A Wishful Heart

In this capitalist world,
I'm just me myself
To-day I dwell in a desolate life
but the prospect remains ever unknown
cloudy and fading were no longer wonder
and i know the fortune still arises someday

I muse and conduct
but my education is languid
no use weeping nor would sighing do
I confess and study
but the time keeps lapsing ever and anon
those variations i cant deserve
and nor can thy providence be

Thou hast promised in thy minstrelsy
I shall acquire a life of heaven
Thou hast whispered at thy worship
I shall wander lonely over a cloud
But all i behold to-day,nothing convinces me
I know the world wont care for my self-esteem
and i know it misty and remote
They live in their own space of minds'limit
They have no consciousness to realize my being
WHY do we ever abuse our sensation illusional
they are just something else like ants or high-heel shoes

The world is marvelously capacious
while my portion is tiny and dolce
just like a fragrant rose
floating over the Pacifc Ocean in a roaming wind

Along the journey
I attempted to discover something like
truth of beauty and shape of soul,
science and ethic,
culture and nature,
And I attempted to gather capital occasionally like
wealth and dignity
desire and consolation
but i know its only a business affair
I would not make exchanges with my vision of peace
I would understand it better than usual
And i enjoy it as if a heaven


Alas,when the heaven falls into golden dream,
where angels murmur like rustling leaves in wind,
and flowing river full of honey or milk
the life which thou blessed,
would finally find its appropriate way for good.